Doc said she looks great, saw the echo notes and said she had a great repair! We talked a bit about the pacemaker, how we would go about monitoring it. They said I would be getting some equipment from Medtronics the maker of her pacer. He checked it and it is also working great, battery life estimated at 3 years although he thinks it should last longer.
I felt pretty reserved at this visit. I am normally much more smiley and outgoing but I just feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. I know I should not feel this way. I am so happy, grateful and relieved surgery went well and it is over and we're home but I just can't relax yet. I want to breathe easy again, I want to forget and just enjoy our lives again but it's hard to let go. I know it has not even been a week yet since we've been home so I'm sure it will take more time. I just barely got my mojo back to clean my house again yesterday as I was completely exhausted the first few days we got home and all I wanted to do was nap, although I didn't. Sleep was still all I thought of while awake.
I was also so very happy to go back to my meeting on Sunday (church). I could relate to words written in Psalms 73:28 ~ "But as for me, the drawing near to God is good for me. In the Sovereign Lord Jehovah I placed my refuge, To declare all of your works." I just felt like I really needed to be close to God again be spiritually nourished so being back made my heart rejoice. We also got a really warm welcome from all the friends. Per doctors orders, I will not be taking Alexa out yet until a few more weeks, giving her sometime to recover and build her immune system back up. But looking forward to the day we can all go out together as a family with no ... err few worries.
Alexa is doing so good, her scar is healing nicely. I can see how normal she looks to be people who just observe from afar. Just like any other little precious toddler, walking, playing and talking up a storm but if you lift her shirt you can see the truth behind the veil, you can see the battle she faced for her life - there is no denying it. It is real and she is my hero.
Our warrior princess ~ still smiling!