You ever have that feeling when you just can't get something off your mind?
Well that's us right now!
We received the call from Alexa's surgeon yesterday, he spoke with the cath doc and he is available Tuesday the 23rd so although the surgeon was able to do surgery on the 19th he would rather have the heart cath doc there in case he needs his assistance to close the muscular VSD's. He says he does not expect it but would rather him be there just in case.
So we have an official date now, Tuesday, February 23rd probably starting at 7:30 a.m. That is officially 19 days away. We will have to report to the hospital on the 22nd for pre-op testing and to speak with the anesthisiologist. So that really only gives us 18 days to prepare. Doc said to plan about a 10 day hospital stay. He also stressed the importance of keeping Alexa healhty these next couple of weeks including staying away from crowds and germs as best as possible.
So there are many things I need to prepare. We will also be having family portrait taken on February 9th so I'm excited about that and need to prepare for that as well. I am happy I have been able to enjoy the visit of our cirquit overseer to our congregation. I was worried for a while that we would be in the hospital with Alexa this week, so it's been nice to meet him and his wife. Looking forward to rest of the week to be spiritually upbuilt.
Lot's of people ask me how I'm feeling and honestly I feel pretty good. I have been pretty peaceful and calm. I do have my moments when sudden fear sets in and I may cry for like 10 seconds but then I pray and get over it pretty quick becasue I realize this is for her good and we have no choice. Mostly I'm dreading that moment when I have to hand her over but I try not to let my mind wonder in the details of the surgery, although sometimes I do, but I prefer to look past that to when she is pink, fully oxygenated and feeling vibrant! As Dr. T. said during his visit "after her surgery she will begin to blossom with the Spring flowers."
"Do not be afraid, for I am with you. Do not gaze about, for I am your God. I will fortify you. I will really help you. I will really keep fast hold of you with my right hand of righteousness."
Looking forward to seeing our beautiful flower bloom!
And having our hearts rejoice!